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JUS MEE WID MYSELF.......................

2008-10-25T07:52:00.000-07:00

THIS IS A DAY, WEN I JUS HAPPEN TO FEEL THE WAY IT SHD BE

NO THERE NOTHING LIKE EVERYTHING IS GOIN PERFECT

BUT I JUS FEEL SOOOO "NOT TIED UP"

I FEEL I JUS CAN MOVE ALONG WID THE WIND

I JUS FEEL LIKE WRITING

DONT KNOW WAT DNT HAVE NETHING PARTICULAR TO WRITE ABOUT

WELL MAYBE THE MUSIC IS MAKIN ME FEEL LIKE GETTIN INTO WORDS

I FEEL SO MUCH AT HOME WID MYSELF WEN I AM WRITING

WRITING MY FEELINGS OUT

JUS THE WAY ITS COMIN

ALL THE WORDS THAT ARE IN MY MIND

ALL THE PHRASES THAT MAKE ME FEEL

ALL THE MOMENT DATS MAKE ME SMILE ALL ALONE

ALL BY MYSELF

WEN I JUST LAUGH OUT

MAYBE DATS PSYCHOTIC

BUTT

WEELLLL .............

DATS JUS THE WAY IT GOES SOMETIMES

WELL JUS KEEP GOIN ON

ON WID THE RAIN

THE WIND THE RAYS OF THE SUN

REACH OUT TO THE LIGHT

JUS KEEEP GOIN

LIKE I AM JUST SOOOO FREE JUS KEEEPP ONN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my trip to awesome JOSHIMATH

2008-09-10T09:48:00.000-07:00

Well some may want to know where Joshimath is
let me tell ya
its a place near Badrinath (one of the "CHAR DHAMS" ) in uttarakhand
This one shows the way to Joshimath

Its surely a beautiful place

but its a dangerously built town
most of the construction has been done by cuttin portions of rocks from the mountain
If i were an architecture student out there then i wouldnt be surprised if i got a site as the one behind me in d snap

JUS ONE BIG HUGE ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well dats wat the place is all about only
the mountains are firstly blasted usin dynamite
den retainin walls are blt(dat too really huge ones)
n well they is very less or absolutely no usage of cement due to cost and safety reasons (coz as said by one construction engineer the makin of cement is not allowed in most places like dese)
Well now dis snap out here shows a housing colony of the jaypee hydroelectric project on the way to badrinath. Its been built in the shape of a ship. Really beautifully built structure

There are a lot of hydroelectric projects bein carried out in dese areas n d sites where they have been made are surely beautified to the most

And of course wen we talk about Badrinath we surely do talk about Kedarnath too

Man dat trip.............

its been engraved in my heart n its sure gonna last lifelong .......................i can never forget the amount we had to walk!!!!!!!!!!

8 hours goin n 10 hrs comin

all d way walkin

well it did test our patience n endurance

the most difficult part was wen we were about to reach ...........dats wen it was most difficult to move on coz the altitude was real high......decrease in the level of O2 (REAL CHOKIN KINDA FEELIN)

and the way was difficult too (n not to forget the smelly part) becoz of all the horse shit dat lay on the path

there were horses for ppl who cldnt walk.. even palanquins to carry older people

but as we slowly approached the temple the tiredness seemed to dissapear

it felt as if God was done wid the testing session well it actually felt great to be inside the rock cut temple

This one is the way well it was actually full of waterfalls n other lovely things to see

the trip sure taught me things ie

PATIENCE WILL SURELY YIELD GOOD RESULTS!

2008-09-05T08:11:00.000-07:00

Well one mite jus think wat is all dese 'gruelling session' dat i have so much said about well i have to tell u of course ... i am an architecture student and all the 'GRUELLING SESSIONS' that i have been talkin about are the times of our submission

Yes Lord

our submissions dats wat architecture is all about all day all nite either we think how to submit or how to avoid submitting wat possible excuse can be made wat possible expressions to put on to make the excuses sound real

WAT WAT WAT?????

it all involves a string of sleepless nites foodless days

all in all a still time wid only the brains and hands workin' dats wat it all is well it surely is a gruelling session

sucks the hell out of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-07T02:00:00.000-07:00

It keeps happenin
the changes of course. the things seem to become even more stressin as the time sways
well it was hectic. all d days dat we had to think of our so called 'IMPORTANT SUBMISSIONS'
yes it was sure damn hectic
squeezed the hell out of us
but u see if u happen to be light minded n try to luk for humour in the whole episode
u'll find urself rollin all over
wen u see the overly sulken faces of all the members involved in this gruelling session
the undone hair standing erect in all directions(i really dnt think this shd be taken the oder way)
but yes dat IS the case wid dose who sport frizzy (i mean really frizzy) hair
n yes not to forget the dark circles
but is the dark circle real for everyone we see
well no
for some it the kohl smeared eyes not washed for days
which disguises itself as DARK CIRCLES!!!!!
n den we have the hungry bitches
who have not eaten a morsel for days
WHY???
cmon
"HAD MY SUBMISSIONS MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
n u'll surely not miss the one's who'd fall asleep while takin bath too.
Well this does continue till the ..................watever
this has surely taught me to get ultraflexible in my actions and my lifestyle too
yes it has surely given a flexible twist to my thoughts
for eg
how to derive design ideas from the way a cow shits
how to decide how ur building will luk by the way water flows
well lets not get tooo archi- technical
but yes it jus keeee............ppppppppsss happenin
THE CHANGES OF COURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-04T07:39:00.000-07:00

A VOICE IS HEARD
AND IT WHISPERS GOODBYE
BUT MY HEART SCREAMS OUT.....
CAN'T LET THE MOMENTS GO BY

I HELD UR HAND
MY FRIEND
YOU LED ME THROUGH
THE SPIRIT WAS HIGH
AND U LIT MY SOUL

BUT THE HEART NOW BLEEDS
WITH TEARS OF PAIN
AND IT TEARS ME APART
NO...............
I CAN'T LET U GO!!!!!!

PETALS

2008-03-25T10:27:00.000-07:00

THE TOUCH SO SMOOTH
IT FELT SO SOFT
YOU SWEPT MY SOUL
YOU LED ME AWAY
THE MAGIC IN THE AIR
GAVE NOTHING BUT CHARM
OH! SO SOFT
I WANDERED SOMEWHERE........

THE GAZE SO STRONG
IT GAVE SHIVERS INSIDE
I FELT SO LOST
I FELT SO SWEET
LONGING FOR THE DROPS
DROPS OF FRESH DEW
WHICH LAY ON THE VELVET
AND WITH FRAGRANCE IT BLEW

IT FLEW AND FELL
IT TOUCHED MY SKIN
IT TICKLED MY BREATH
AND I KNEW I WAS SHY
LIKE THE COLD OF THE FLAKES
LIKE THE WARMTH OF THE FLAMES
YOUR VIBES DROVE ME WILD
LIKE THE PETALS IN THE WIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINDING SOLACE

2008-02-17T04:12:00.000-08:00

THERE ARE TIMES WEN I BEGIN TO WONDER
WAT WUD BE BETTER
IS IT TO BE SURPASSED BY LOVE
OR
NEVER TO BE LOVED..........
SOMETIMES I DO THINK
WAT WUD MAKE ME HAPPIER
IS IT THE HALO OF SUCCESS OVER MY SOUL
OR
THE SCREAMS OF FROLIC N FREEDOM............
I ASK MYSELF A MILLION TIMES
HOW WUD MY HEART FIND BLISS
SHOULD I STOP IT FROM FALLIN PREY TO TEMPT
OR
SHOULD I LET IT FLY TO WHERE I HAVE DREAMT.........
I DO SOMETIMES ASK MYSELF
WHERE IS MY POINT OF DESTINY
IS IT WHERE THE WORLD IS PUSHING ME TO
OR
IS IT WHERE MY SENSES ARE DYING TO BELONG..................
WHERE MY JOYS WOULD BREATH AGAIN
WHERE MY HEART WUD NO MORE BE SANE
WHERE I WUD FIND MYSELF.........
AND
WHERE I WUD LOSE MYSELF.............................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NIRVANA

2008-02-16T09:05:00.000-08:00

A PHASE IN TRUTH
WEN IMAGINATION IGNITES
A CHANCE IN FAITH
WEN THE SOUL TAKES A STRIDE
ITS NOT ABOUT RELIGION
NOT EVEN ABOUT WEALTH
DOES NOT DESCRIBE THE 'HOLY ONE'
AND IT HAS NO STEALTH
ITS NOT GOIN TO CONFINE
NO LIMITS ARE DEFINED
TAKES U TO A HIGHER SELF
A FEELING MOST DIVINE
THE STATE IN TIME
WEN NOTHING SEEMS AMISS
THE WAKE IN WORSHIP
WEN THE HEART IS IN BLISS

IT STARTS WITH A LIFE
WEN MYSTERY HOLDS EACH BREATH
THE MIND SEARCHES AN ANSWER
FOR EVERY SAY AND EVERY STEP
MOMENTS OF CHAOS
JADED AND ENGROSSED
A SOUL NOT STABLE
UNABLE TO SEE ACROSS
IN LONLINESS IT CREEPS
WITH THE RULES TO ABIDE
BUT THE HEART YEARNS TO SWAY
AWAY WITH THE ZEAL IN TIME
HARMONY IT ACCQUIRES
IN FAITH IT CONFIDES
ENERGY HOLDS THE SPIRIT
SWINGS IT UPTO THE SKY

TO SURRENDER TO THE HEAVENS
THE GLORY AND THE MIGHT
WIT SACRIFICES AND VOWS
TO GRATIFY AND UNITE
WITH ENLIGHTTENED VISION
TO REGALE AND STRENGTHEN
WITH FREEDOM TO GRAB THE STARS
AND A MIND JUST AS STABLE
REACHING FAR ABOVE
BEYOND THE CONCIOUS SOUL
RIGHT UPTO THE ZENITH
TO CAPTIVATE AND BEHOLD

THE ENRAPTURE OF NATURE
THE STRENGTH OF TRUTH
WHICH NESTLES THE MANKIND
FROM FURY AND RUTH
THE JOUNEY OF LIFE
A CHAPTER TILL DEATH
OF CREATIONS TO INVENTIONS
AND FINALLY TO MYTH
A SAGA OF ILLUSIONS
DREAMS TO FEEL CONTENT
OF HELPING THE BEING

TO EMERGE OUT OF RESENT

BEING ENLIVENED BY TRUST
A HOPE IN WORSHIP
WHICH RENOUNCES THE WRATH
THE PAIN AND THE HARDSHIP
A GEM OF BELIEF
WHICH THE MIND ATTAINS
ASSURANCE TO HEAL GRIEF
AND ETERNAL SPIRITS RETAINED
A JOY UNBOUNDED
IT ENRICHES THE SOUL
THE INTELLECT - IT RECIEVES
POWERS TO WITH HOLD

LIFE HAS SURPASSED
THE UNDERSTANDING OF MERE THOUGHTS
DREAMS ARE INCITED
TO REACH THE CELESTIAL GODS

A WORLD SO BLESSED..................
A LIFE UPHELD............

YES, THE SOL DID SUCCUMB
TO THE GLORY RECIEVED

IT INDEED WAS....................

A PHASE IN TRUTH
WEN IMAGINATION DID IGNITE!
A CHANCE IN FAITH
WEN THE SOUL TOOK A STRIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FORLORN

2008-02-09T10:09:00.000-08:00

The feelings dat engulf me at this time are so restless
i hope to the deepest breath of my soul dat i may remain n not get lost in this crowd. in this crowd of mere ordinary souls
i dont want to lose my own dirth
there a so many moment wher fear holds on to me
n i feel that i may be left as the one int the maddening crowd of 'no one'
but i swear i dont want to be one among dat
the ways wud seem better
doin smthin good
give meaning to my existence
though i have happiness to myself
i want to find peace
abolish anger from my very mindset
i want love but wen i get it
donno how to reciprocate
dats i how happen to lose it
i jus donno why it happens
maybe i think more from my mind dan from my heart
but dats not the way it should go i guess
love needs to be understood
realized
felt even in the absence of the person
it has to be accepted the way it is expressed
but does it mean
dat it can be expressed any how
does it mean dat u just belive in it
even if the person dosent show it
how do u judge if the love u have is true
how do u decide if the feelings showered upon u are deep from the soul
how
i need to know
coz it hurts
wen u feel dat somthing somewhere is wrong
being loved ................... truly
is one of the most beautiful feeling
n i want to feel the truth of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

VERVE TO SURVIVE

2008-01-27T05:55:00.000-08:00

ITS YET ANOTHER BEGGINING
A HOPE TO START OFF
HELPING MY SOUL REGAIN ITS SPARKLE
WALK ON BREATHIN THE AIR SO REAL

I DREAM......... OF FLYIN FAR!
BUT STRENGTH IS STILL TO BE ATTAINED
CROSSING THE GRIEF
HURDLES TO BE FACED

RAZED AND ZADED........!!!!!!!!!!!!
BUT STILL FEEL THE LIFE RUNNING THROUGH
STILL NOT DEAD
BECAUSE HOPE DWELLS
SURVIVED FOR GOOD
AND YET ANOTHER BEGGINING
...................NONCHALANTLY VIEWING THE HEAVEN!!!

2008-01-27T05:40:00.000-08:00

LEAVE YOUR FANCIES
COME OUT THE WORLD IS NOT A DREAM!
ITS A BITING TRUTH
NOSTALGIA IS STRONG
BUT NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO DROWN YOU
DEATH IS ULTIMATE
MAKE IT GLORIOUS
COME OUT OF YOUR SUFFERINGS
PAIN IS ONLY WITHIN YOURSELF
IT CANNOT BE SEEN
..........IT CANNOT BE SHOWN!!!!!!
OVERCOME YOUR WEAKNESS
DONT LET IT FOLLOW YOU!
LIFE MEANS RENEWAL
.....................REINCARNATION!!!!
FROM GREED
FROM LUST
FANTASY........
DESIRE...
...............PASSION!!!!!!!!!
NO THEY DONT EVER LAST
YOUR MISER GRAVE WONT ALLOW THEM INSIDE!!!!!!
IN THE EMPTY SPACE IS WHERE THEY ALL BELONG
DONT MEDDLE WITH NATURE'S RULES
YOURLIFE IS NOT FOREVER
........
IT SHALL BE DEMOLISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!